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Sun Aug 17, 2008, 8:06 AM

....that's all....NOTHING.....I've done absolutely nothing artistically since mom died in April. I have several great ideas..I have several great prelim. sketches..I have several great roughs on the boards..I have a couple of WIPs.............but I can't seem to sit down and do a damned thing with any of it. Every time I try...I cry. Mom was an artist; and a damned good one too! What little talent I possess..I got from her; what little art instruction I had over the years, I got from 9th grade art, 12th grade art (9 weeks each) and her..........and now she's gone and every time I think about art or trying to work on anything artistic; I cry. Just the mere thought of trying makes me want to curl into a fetal position in a dark place and die. Art was always such an intregral(sp) part of our mother/daughter relationship...and now that is gone.

UGH!

I hate this! I hate feeling this way! I hate that mom died!

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~RavensEyeArt Aug 17, 2008, 10:58:17 AM

*hugs* When you are meant to do these works you will, just take your needed time to Grieve. And believe me I know this from first hand experience. Take care ok?

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`sphilr Aug 17, 2008, 11:02:17 AM

This life is such a mystery, and the people we love are so much a part of who we are; I pray that your art will find a way to eventually emerge for you again, and that you can find comfort and strength in it.

~Martywolf92 Aug 17, 2008, 2:38:08 PM

awwwww...

It would be so hard for you to lose your mum. You must feel so lost and confused. Just think of the best! You'll come through one day and do lots of art and it will be even better!

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Have a good sniff around my sisters and cousins page and artworks they are really good.
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!angelles Sep 27, 2008, 10:56:19 AM

I'm so sorry about your mother Sister My Sister. :comfort: You must remember who you are though and the gifts that have been given to you by your mother. You are a part of her legacy and thru you, her work continues. You know she is close, you know she grieves to see you grieve, you know you will see her again. I know you want that NOW, but your work here isn't finished yet. You have so much to offer so many and bring light and love to those around you. I know... I am one of those people. Take your time with the art. Let go of guilt. Talk to your mother. Keep me posted my dear one.

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*AmberCrystalElf Oct 1, 2008, 4:12:47 AM

So very sorry to hear of your loss.
Don't give up on your art - but don't push it if you are not ready. In time the pain will fade and memories of joy will grow and you'll be able to create wonderful artworks, in celebration of your mother.

Here's something to help you through this difficult time

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Take care

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"Imagination will often carry us to worlds that never were. But without it we go nowhere." - Carl Sagan

~Artiste-LiLi Oct 11, 2008, 3:54:01 PM

Thank you. It has been difficult and it still is; so I take it moment by moment and day by day. I *want* to work....it is just too painful right now. In time, in time.

Blessings........

~Artiste-LiLi Oct 11, 2008, 4:00:14 PM

Thank you. It has been hard...and remains so. Mother and I were *extremely* close, as you know. It still isn't "real" for me....I mean, I know she is gone...but it isn't "REAL", it doesn't *feel* real. I just miss her so much. I want to work on my art..but it just hurts too damn much.....*MOM* was always the artist..not me. I have a whole liftime's worth of therapy over just that subject. lol.

The guilt....yeah....the guilt....I don't even want to go there right now (like I ever really leave there)...there's way more than too much of that in my head.

I'm sorry to hear of your loss too. And your health issues. Please keep me posted and drop me an email when you can. I miss talking with you.

Love..........